well...this is it. I'm taking a leap of faith today and attempting to go back out in public. This is going to be hard, and I honestly don't even know if it'll work but all I can do is try. this weekend, has once again, been so tough for us both. I'm filled with so many mixed emotions right now, and have to make a lot of important decesions for my husband and I. I continue to pray I do the right thing, and do the things that would honor,and make my baby proud.... Im now on chapter 27 of 'see' you all HAVE to read this book. thes last few chapters I've read is practically my story (with different names, and the accident is slightly different than ours) but it has blessed me in so many ways. Then two of the songs that steven curtis wrote while he was greiving in the time of losing his daughter, truly comfort both jeff and I. its almost as if he wrote them for us. Like someone knows exactly our thoughts and feelings.... I'd do anything to meet that woman. she now makes me strive to continue on with this journey and is a constent reminder of how there's no way I'll make it without his grace. the weekdays are somehow easier than weekends, maybe because we fall apart together and it allows satan to jump in. the guilt, the heartache, the troubling thoughts and images...they just seem to explode inside of us, and we both react totally differently. to everyone out there that has been praying please do it double doses today...post this on your wall, and help spread the word. prayer is the only thing I need right now. Everyone wants to know what they can do and finally I can put you all to work.. Have your family and friends pray for direction, guidance, and that the lord fills our voided aching hearts with his love and grace. And that these decisons I make will be of him.. I can't lay down and die, which some days seems to be the only option, but today is the day where I pray god wraps his arms around my husband and I, and takes us where he wants us in life. may god bless you all and we praise god for the love and prayers.
Tiff, you know we are praying so hard for you and Jeff, and will be doing so today! God will get you where you need to be and guide you as you go!
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I will not be at work this week but know I'm praying for you,that the peace of God dwells deep within and that the holy spirit the comforter is with u.
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I know we have not met, but Caramie and I use to work together. I also lost my little girl and wanted to let you know that each day that you 'keep going' and do what you think is best is a great accomplishment, and your little angel is watching over you and guiding you (even if you make a mistake, as we learn from our mistakes.)
ReplyDeleteGOD BLESS YOU ALL and continue to hold onto your faith, it will get you through.
Love and Blessings
Lisa Adkinson
Also - please feel free to friend me on facebook - and if/when you are ready, we started Bellas Blessing Foundation to help families with sick children if you would like to help others through the foundation - or just follow us to know you are not alone.
May God bless you and your husband. We do not know one another, but I delivered my first born stillborn when I was six months pregnant. I miss him every day so I cannot imagine the depth of hurt you and your husband are feeling. I know that the pain does not ever go away, but I know that God also does not expect us to carry it alone. I remember pitching crying fits before God and also feeling comfort from Him and sometimes being so mad at him. Your faith is an inspiration. Cling to the truth, God's Word...it will get you through one day at a time. God bless you and your husband.
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