It is days like today I could just fall apart..It's not suppose to be this way. all of my morgys friends except for miss sawyer are officially going to be here today. She will be making her big debeut around morgys birthday. baby klay was born about a week after she went to heaven, and now her friend kyndal is being born. How am I suppose to be excited? these are my best friends children being born, and I'm going to miss all of it. I was so excited thinking about my morgan growing up with all of these babies and it's like I've been thrown out the circle of new mommies. l will always be morgans mommy, but I can't brag with everyone on her new accomplishments, and post pictures of all of her new achievements. I think this is one of the hardest things...everytime I see a baby my heart just melts. even during church, it takes all I have to stay sitting in the pew because I just cry and cry. Yesterday I had to pray for god to allow me to make it through church because it was pretty tough on both jeff and I. we miss her so much and just want her back. we miss being "da da, and ma ma". I have faith that God will continue to mend our hearts though.
Another big thanks for all the prayers and encouragement we love you all!
I can't imagine! But I know that mending is taking place! Hang in there and know how much you are loved that so many are praying for you!
ReplyDeleteWhat a perfect little bundle she is, I just know she is having a ball up in heaven and is smiling down on you and Jeff. You will see glimpses of morgan in all of those children of your friends, keep smiling..she loves you so, and so do I but most importantly....God your Father in heaven loves you even more:))) Carla
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