Answer to prayer

Well, we found out last night that the sellers accepted our offer on the house we've been looking at. I think now I'm even a bigger wreck than I was a few days ago...in the mix of sadness, anger, jealousy, heartache...a little excitement came into my heart. Moving from our old home is going to be hard, we share so many good memories there, but I know God knows our hearts, and he knows that living there is just not possible. This new house would be absolutely perfect for my baby girl. The yard is HUGE, the perfect space for a swingset and even one day a pool. Even though she's not physically with us, she will be moving into this new home too. I plan to set up her room exactly the way her old room was set up...just how it was when she was last in there. I look forward to the day where I can stare at those pink walls, and rock in my glider reading good night moon, and her baby bear bible to her. I hope the smell of her clothes and blankets doesn't ware off to fast...I will treasure them forever. Even though this is a exciting time for Jeff and I, it's going to be a tough time as well. NEVER EVER will I MOVE ON from my precious baby girl and there is no such thing as 'NORMAL'..we are simply searching for a new normal in every day and she's right here with us cheering us on. Our hearts hurt. I want to hold her SO SO SO bad. just one more kiss and giggle would be great. One day soon I'll get to meet her at heavens gate and she will be there bouncing and ready for me to pick her up!! I can not WAIT for that day to come.