Remembering the life and love of Morgan Rilee

 

We are finally all moved in, and I finally have internet again!! Bloging on my phone is to tedious...so I'm  glad our internet is all installed and I am finally able to blog again! Since the last blog a couple of major things have taken place. Hopefully I can catch up and get back to bloging at least once a week again. I have good days..and bad days...and  to be honest theres a little of both in each day. No day is totally good or bad..Things are all taken moment by moment. I'll start off on when we celebrated the life and love of my baby girl on what would have been her 1st birthday on Friday, May 27th. We were truly surrouded by love and comfort from all of the people that mean the most to us. From the prayers, and kind words, to the presents, and tears we shared with everyone, it made that day truly special. Our Morgy got to celebrate her 1st birthday sitting in the lap of our Lord..eating the absolute best cake and ice cream heaven has! Other than in my arms...there is honestly no other place that could beat that. Every single day since Morgan wen to heave I've seen a yellow butterfly..(most people know this story) So my dear fried Cassie and my sister inlaw Amy suprised me and ordered 12 live yellow butterflies for us to release at the party, and tee shirts that had morgans name on them with a butterfly. We had an amazing turn out that evening. Everyone had a good time, and even though I think we all shed a tear or should I say TEARS that evening we enjoyed the compay and enjoyed remembering the life and love we shared with my sweet baby girl  over her short 8 months on this earth. There were may times that day whe Satan was trying to take over...I caught myself in a major breakdown right before it was time to get ready for everyone to come over. I kept myself busy all morning and majority of the afternoon and I nonticed that everything was going PERFECT! Never have I planned a event when not one problem came up. God blessed me. This day was everything I had imagined it would have been..except the biggest part was missing. The cupcakes were adorable, my sweet friend misti did AMAZING on the shirts, and the balloons, the butterflies were perfect, the bounce house arrived on time, and we had an entire house/yard full of friends and loved ones all piled in our beautiful new home...This was what I had dreamed of my baby girls first birthday..but her smiling face wasn't here. There was no high cair with her own cake, and watching her get to make a mess eating her cake..she didn't get to open presents, or giggle and laugh with all the other kiddos.. It was far from easy to get through this, but once again, God gave me strength and reminded me of how happy she is there in Heaven, and enjoy this time because she is truly ecstatic where she is...Thank you all so much for everything you did for us that day. It means so much for you to share that day with us.