I Will Carry You

The last few days have, as usual, been a rollercoster. bad, bad, good, ok,...who knows what tomorrow holds. I do know that I have felt God comforting my heart many times this week. I came across a new book called, "I Will Carry You." It is about a relationship so intimate with God that it carves a safe place for crises of faith, for faith proved geuine and for divine callings willed, sealed, and fulfilled. It is a mother's moving story that is actually a true writer. It's about a mom that at 18 weeks pregnant with her fourth daughter, Audre, the doctors discovered conditions leaving Audrey "incompatible with life." She was faced with the decsion whether to termiate the pregnancy, however, her and her husband chose to carry Audrey for as long as she had life. I'd reccomed it to all of you mommies that have lost a child. No matter the death you have been dealt with. I even plan on sharing this book with a couple of the girls I am closests too. VERY GOOD BOOK SO FAR!

The last few days alot has been laid on the table. I really feel like God is preparing my heart for what he has in store for us later on down the road. He's still working on Jeff and I at different times..hint the stress and the off balace we have at times with our emotions...BUT none the less, he is at work! I am surrounded by people at every moment of the day that lifts me up. I work with some amazing ladies, and the support and the comfort they've given me this week is simply amazing! I know talking about Morgan usually makes most people cry, but I could talk about her 24/7. I'm not sayig I won't cry any during that time, but it feels right, and it feels good to talk about Morgan. I know she's happy to how much her mommy has 'opened up' to close friends, and now even co-workers. I'm blessed! Monday evening I had a rough day, and I shared this with my Facebook friends, but I must tell it one more time. I parked my car under the carport and got out the car, and somethig flew right ito the side of my face!! It was a HUGE yellow and black butterfly. I didn't know what it was so on instinct i was swatting until i caught a glimpse of what it was. She was welcoming me home and running up to me to give me kisses. Butterfly kisses at that!! My sweet girl..she is my motivation. I want her to be proud, and I want to spend eternity with my angel. Some days are tuff, or should I say MOST days are tuff..but God is at work on me, ad he is getting me through these tuff times.