spring is coming

the name of one of my favorite scc songs... I have managed to fall WAY behind on my blogging yet again! It seems like  I anm trying to stay so busy that I somehow forget to do some of the things I enjoy most. noticed  that if my brain ever goes to 'idle mode' that is when satan comes in and does his best. The regrets, the guilt..- should have done this, or could have done that...its almost like  time stops for a moment and have to ask myself..did this really happen. It all sounds so far fetched..never would have thought this would have happened to my baby girl. as a mother you keep you babies far away from harms way..so how did this happen? wish the comfort of knowing thgat will get to hold her again would stay burning in my heart and mind constently with no interuption, but sometimes get so caught up in the moment that I get so frustrated that I don't focus on that. I just want her back..I beg and plead god that Ill never put her down if he just gives her back to me...Sunday is mothers day, and It would be a blessinf to hold my baby girl on that day. It will be tough..Ill never get those sweet little cards and hugs and kisses on this earth from morgan.. it just kills me. I continue to hold on to my faith in the lord, because know that he is truly the only one that is going to allow me to keep on and finish out what he has  for me on this earth. On a brighter note...god has truly blessed jeff and I. not only with hope and encouragement, but with a beautiful new home!! this is something we have prayed for, for sometime now. of course never did we imagine setting up morgans room with no morgan..but he gave us the strength to do this and for that I am thankful. its exactly the way I had it at home! The smells are even still there!! I go to her room and rock in our glider and just pray and pray. Its a place I have needed for 3 months now. we are fixing the house up with new paint and  new floors, and filling it with new furniture. we want this to be a fresh new start and I am so very thankful for the opportunity to be able to do this. god has truly blessed us. Thanks to all for the continued love and prayers...